Life can be such a pain sometimes you know? I know I should be blessed to live every day but what’s the point if you can’t have what you want? Sitting down thinking about certain people made me realized you can’t have everything you want no matter how hard you try even if you be nice to them. True they’re just friends but you wanted more. You kinda realized you were lonely. Lonely enough to fall for anybody that cross your eyes. Being lonely is a hard battle if you ask me… you try to fight it off trying to be around with different people or staying home watching random t.v shows and etc… it can really be a pain, it’s like you fighting demons because you wanna push everyone away from you and be lock up in your room all day unless you cooking or using the bathroom or leaving for work. You sit there and wonder when it’s going to end, who going to make it stop or will this pointless battle last forever… I have been out of place lately, my mind is gone 24/7 but I realize I just have to act my normal self, and that stay chilling at all times. Hanging with people who has good vibes, try to get my life back on track no matter who I meet, try to force myself to go out more and make new friends who can lift you up, all these things come to your mind so so easy, but it’s up to you if you wanna make that change. True certain people can make an impact on your life and they leave you for no reason( and no I not talking about my ex) got nothing but love for her…. but in the mean time, I’ll see how this battle go. Thank you for reading if you did.
Imperious
I remember when I first came home and start working at a different post with a new office was kinda annoying… well I wouldn’t say kinda, they were.
My old bosses at my job were always trying to get me or other empolyees to work hours that they shouldn’t work. Like doing 3 shifts in a day or calling someone 5 times at 5 am asking if they can cover a shift which happens to me once but the sleep was too good haha.
I didn’t like this behavior, just because a person works for you don’t mean you can threaten them to come in or stay over when you know they can’t. Two people at the office did this until they got fired but before they did I’d to learn to stand up for myself.
Never be scared to ever say NO when you doing crazy hours at your job. They can’t force you to do anything that you don’t wanna do. Like me… I stop answering their phone calls when I knew I didn’t have to work, I stop doing over time, stop staying over when I know I didn’t need too and etc. It felt good just saying no to a boss who was always demanding and it felt good when they had to come in and cover the shift.
You going to have tough jobs in your life with some crazy bosses, but always remember you are your own person and you can’t be boss around. Today was a good Sunday and I hope yours was good too!
https://wordofthedaychallenge.wordpress.com/2018/09/16/imperious/
Being a parent
I feel like being a parent is a wonderful thing to experience but sadly in this cold world we live in, some people don’t understand that.
If you live in Florida, then you probably heard of the little boy that was killed by his own mother. She even gave out a fake story to cover it up but fail.
This little boy was innocent. You could tell from the videos and photos he bought life to people. He made you smile, he made you laugh and I know for a fact anyone would be happy to keep him.
His so call mother didn’t deserve him. It’s sadder to hear that she was 6 months pregnant when she did all this like why? So many families would be happy to take care of a child and as a father, this hurts me to the core.
I’ll never understand why people wanna harm children’s but then you’ve to realize we live in a world where people don’t care and will do as they please.
Certain people don’t deserve kids and this story is sad and if you wanna follow, I’ll post the link below and send prayers to the families if you may.
My girl
I felt like writing about her this morning and that’s exactly what I’m going to do. So far I learn a lot from her. So strong and independent that she doesn’t need anyone help because no matter what, she always gets things done.
Whenever she feels stressful, I always do my best to calm her down and tell her to not to worry about things because I’ll be right by her side to take care of them.
She also a wonderful mother to her son and I love that about her. No matter what she is always there for him and will do anything to make sure he is straight.
I also enjoy my time with her whenever we spend time together, but lately, my work schedule gets in the way sometimes but even with that she is still there for me. If I call for food, she there. If I call for a ride to work or home she there and if I ever need anyone to vent too she is there. No matter what she is always there for me even when I aggravated her so time lol but ill make sure I will be there for her.
I honestly can’t wait to talk to her whenever she wakes up, hearing her beautiful voice always makes my day. Her random laughs, the wisdom she speaks and I also love that she trusts me enough to vent to whenever she has problems.
The morning is nice and my little sister is coming over which is cool. I hope you all are having a good Sunday and I wish you a good day
September
It’s finally here, me and my daughter birthday month. Even to this day I still can’t believe our birthdays are four days apart which is cool.
Last year on my 25th birthday I sadly couldn’t celebrate it because of hurricane Irma and since I didn’t evacuate. I stay home and help my grandparents but luckily for my city the hurricane turn at the last second which was good but bad for the other city which suffers a lot of damage. Also, certain areas in my city had no power for a whole week but my area did.
This month came fast and I’m glad it’s here. If you have a birthday in September I just wanna say happy early birthday and I wish I could send you a gift and speak of gifts I’m all ears lol. But the best gift will be to spend time with my daughter, girlfriend and a few friends and family.
It rains like hell for the past couple of days but for the 1st of the month it was all blue and cloudy with some sunshine and I wish you a good day.
Chilling on the leaf
I took this picture today before I took my daughter to the water park.
I found it amazing it was just sitting there chilling like it was waiting someone to take a picture.
I was able to move it to a safer location in my back yard because there was a nice storm coming plus I didn’t won’t anyone to touch it.
If you able to snap a good picture, take it. You’ll always remember it and you can show other people.
Today was great, had a fun/chill time today and I hope you did too.
Cursory of my report
https://worBefore I put my security report in the binder I double check it to make sure it is correct.
I sometimes look over other officers report and I see so many mistakes. Like I could tell they didn’t take their time reading over their stuff.
No matter where you are, always check your what you reading.
You never know what you’ll miss.
Take ya time going over things, every detail counts.
Today been a drag for me but it slowly got better and I wish you a good day.
Redolent
When I hear music that was made back in 2014-2015 and 2016 I start to reminisce about the days I work in Orlando.
Certain songs always jog back my memories of what I was doing at the time and I found that cool.
So if you just hanging out or taking a drive and start to remember stuff because of a song. Embrace it and enjoy those memories because some are not lucky like you to remember times when they were happy or sad.
Always cherish your memories because we all learn from them and I wish you a good day.
Loath
I remember growing up I always dislike my mother. When I was about 4 or 5 she lost me and my siblings to the court system because she wasn’t doing the right thing in life.
When she lost us, she didn’t really try to get us back. Actually, she didn’t try at all. Once she saw how much freedom had with no 4 kids holding her back, it was all fun from that point.
Growing up I didn’t really see my mother as a mother if that makes sense. I saw her as a regular person who births me in this world. I don’t even say mom when she around me, just her first name. Sad but true.
Now that I’m a father myself, I’ll make sure my daughter gets all the love she deserves from me and no matter what I’m doing in life. I’ll always be there.
Just because you have a child doesn’t mean your life end there. I myself still enjoy life and being a parent is also a cool very fun job and I wouldn’t trade it in for anything.
Today I plan on writing all day since I miss a lot of work. Life has been busy but it’s the good busy and I hope life is going well for you.
https://wordofthedaychallenge.wordpress.com/2018/08/07/loath/
Investigation
Being an investigator takes time if you ask me.
Having to study different people, different things, different areas and many more about life.
You’ve to learn about that person. Their schedule, work life, love life or any hobbies they enjoy to do. If he or she has children, what do they do with them and how many do they have and etc.
You see, that sounds like a lot of work to me, definitely for one person. If you ever have to investigate someone because you not sure? think to yourself and ask is it worth it? Do I have the time to study this person? And why am I doing it?
Always remember to worry about yourself and the ones that you love. People come and go but only your soul stays. The only thing you should be investing in your life and how to make it better for you.
I wish you a good evening and I hope you’re not baking in the sun like me.
https://meetthebloggersblog.wordpress.com/2018/08/08/investigation/
Cece Letter#1
I realize your last words that you were probably trying to tell me you were going to sleep which is cool so sorry for calling twice. Ya know, that phone call made my day/night. This whole day I was eager to call or even text you but I knew you were busy and I didn’t want to disturb you.
But that the thing though. I could have text or call anybody else but I only wanted to talk to you and you only. Yeah, my day was boring because of the 16h shift but it was all worth it in the end because I got to talk to you.
I really did enjoy our phone conversations tonight. Like I said before, your voice is so soothing and relaxing that I don’t mind listening to you talk but I still found it cool you enjoy listening to me talk, you made me smile.
Even though your day was busy I still hope you had a good one, the shoes you pick out was nice and I’m sure you’ll pick a perfect outfit and I can’t wait to see you in it.
I wish you sweet dreams and good night sleep and I hope you enjoy the letter.
