Life can be such a pain sometimes you know? I know I should be blessed to live every day but what’s the point if you can’t have what you want? Sitting down thinking about certain people made me realized you can’t have everything you want no matter how hard you try even if you be nice to them. True they’re just friends but you wanted more. You kinda realized you were lonely. Lonely enough to fall for anybody that cross your eyes. Being lonely is a hard battle if you ask me… you try to fight it off trying to be around with different people or staying home watching random t.v shows and etc… it can really be a pain, it’s like you fighting demons because you wanna push everyone away from you and be lock up in your room all day unless you cooking or using the bathroom or leaving for work. You sit there and wonder when it’s going to end, who going to make it stop or will this pointless battle last forever… I have been out of place lately, my mind is gone 24/7 but I realize I just have to act my normal self, and that stay chilling at all times. Hanging with people who has good vibes, try to get my life back on track no matter who I meet, try to force myself to go out more and make new friends who can lift you up, all these things come to your mind so so easy, but it’s up to you if you wanna make that change. True certain people can make an impact on your life and they leave you for no reason( and no I not talking about my ex) got nothing but love for her…. but in the mean time, I’ll see how this battle go. Thank you for reading if you did.
Twitch account 7/6
My twitch account, feel free to watch sometimes as I game.
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Rancor 6/14
I always tell my friends and family to be eazy whenever I’m telling them goodbye or something like that. But I also use it in other ways too like telling them to be chill, happy, strong, positive, and just don’t let the hate get to you.
I feel like we have a lot of hate going around in our lives and in the world. Some may speak on it and others will just leave it alone.
I know a few people who are dealing with hate in their life. I do my best to listen and try to give them advice. When I’m finished talking to em I usually don’t hear from them until they are done dealing whatever they were going through. Some make dumb decisions and I sit there and be like why? you got some much going for you, now you going backward. Then you got the ones who make the right choice and got rid of that hate they had in their heart. Talking better about people and everything you can see that’s positive.
I really do feel like you can stop the hate. It just takes a while to do. If you got friends and family that’s acting weird toward something or someone, check on them and see if you help. Even if you fail you did something when no one else would but don’t give up either, keep trying until you see that bitterness out their heart oh and be Eazy 🙂
Backwards 6/12
Sometimes in life, we go backwards without even wanting to but that’s how things are
You should never feel discouraged when going backward in life. We have our hard times and a good time but I feel like the hard times make us a stronger person. All them backward moments that you couldn’t control are just life lessons.
I saw people who were doing so good in life until they get around the wrong folks and start moving backward. Sad that you see it but no matter the advice that person has been given but it seems like they need to learn the hard way.
Try your best to move forward in life. Hard time will definitely come but you always have to be ready. Some things may get to us but don’t let that bring your life down. Going backward or not you’re still living. Do your best to move forward no matter what.
https://wordofthedaychallenge.wordpress.com/2020/06/12/backward-2/
Joy Of Life 6/11
We enjoy life and try to cherish every moment of it. With all the joy you can experience in life it’s hard to pick one memory and live with it.
Whenever my daughter comes over I can tell she enjoyed her time over here. Even if she stays in the house all day she always seems to find something to watch or play with. She does the same at her mother’s house. I just found it amazing how she can find the joy out in anything she does or watches and I like that. Don’t need other kids around to have fun.
Or the residents I see at my job doing garden work. They damn near 90 plus years old and be out there pulling stuff out the ground and all. Pain or not I can tell they do it for the joy and I can see the joy in their eyes.
We can find joy in everyday life. Just gotta live without regrets and do things that you know for a fact that will make you happy.
https://wordofthedaychallenge.wordpress.com/2020/06/11/joy/
Golden Look 6/10
The golden picture you see below, Yep that’s my girlfriend with her crybaby self lol but that my baby though 🙂
I love it when she gets all pamper up. Her hair, nails, eyebrows, eyelashes, should I carry on lol?
Always pamper your woman or man when you can. Even with all the bills and both being parents I still find a way to make sure she gets pamper so she can look well. Yes, she can do it herself but I just like doing it.
Even without getting pamper she still looks golden in my eyes, she will complain and say ugh I’m so ugly bae and I’ll say Nah you still look good lol, have you seen my haircut lol? I need a good cut from KG( My barber name) this weekend. Doing right or wrong always feels like you look well.
https://wordofthedaychallenge.wordpress.com/2020/06/10/golden/
Words 6/10
Today has so far been chill, play the game mostly all day, talk to my girlfriend, went to my favorite joint to get food, help my grandparents, check up on daughter, she wanna go to Rainbow Springs again. I told her mother I’ll pay for everything. Just take her, I feel like it’s nice that she wants to swim all the time. Now to get her into soccer lol. Now to the saying below.
Resist Temptation
We could all relate to this saying because it shadows us in our everyday life no matter what we do.
Like me doing my best not to eat a lot of junk food whenever I’m bored. Or like earlier today when I was playing League Of Legends in this 48-minute game which could have ended in the 30 or 25-minute mark but my team refused to push for home base. I even back door( Back door in LOL if you can teleport to the enemy base without them knowing and go for the win before they kill you or notice you) but sadly I died all three times but came close. I had to resist not to rage quit or rage on the players because it’s like they didn’t want to end. I wanted to rage but I resist. I said allot of cuss words though.
It may be hard but we all can resist something if we really try to. We have our moments but as long you have the will to resist you should be okay if you don’t then your day will come.
Loud frogs 6/10
I only work at the guardhouse on Tuesday night going on Wednesday mornings. If not I’m outside doing patrols.
Every few nights or if it rains real good. Frogs like these will come out of nowhere and start singing lol. I honestly feel sorry for my co-worker because they can go all night and don’t let them be in the sewer lol. Them sounds will double and much louder.
I don’t mind the frogs. I see a different type of frog every night and I do my best not to run over the baby ones.
living things can be annoying no matter what it’s but don’t be scared to take pictures evening if they keep hopping away. Because the frog below would not let me get close lol. I had to zoom to take these pictures.
Words 6/9
So far, today has been good, the sun came back out, haven’t rain since Sunday… well in my area. Talk to my girlfriend for a little, went to my neighbor’s house, and listen to her vent about boy problems oh and I help her drain her pool. She also gave me some black mulch for my flowers but I’m gonna pick it up later. Now I’m home typing this saying below.
Be the first to say hello.
I like this saying, I always do my best to smile and say hello or ask how you doing? even when I get home from work I do my best to text my girlfriend good morning. Few times she will beat me but that only if I get home and go buy breakfast. Even at my job, it’s required me to be friendly and speak to everyone you see. So I do my best to say hello first even through the gate or me seeing them on property.
Do your best to speak first, some people will walk right past you and not speak, might wave but no words but a simple hello might change the outcome.
Random post 6/9
So what has protesting accomplished ?????
👉🏾Within 10 days of sustained protests:
Minneapolis bans use of choke holds.
👉🏾Charges are upgraded against Officer Chauvin, and his accomplices are arrested and charged.
👉🏾Dallas adopts a “duty to intervene” rule that requires officers to stop other cops who are engaging in inappropriate use of force.
👉🏾New Jersey’s attorney general said the state will update its use-of-force guidelines for the first time in two decades.
👉🏾In Maryland, a bipartisan work group of state lawmakers announced a police reform work group.
👉🏾Los Angeles City Council introduces motion to reduce LAPD’s $1.8 billion operating budget.
👉🏾MBTA in Boston agrees to stop using public buses to transport police officers to protests.
👉🏾Police brutality captured on cameras leads to near-immediate suspensions and firings of officers in several cities (i.e., Buffalo, Ft. Lauderdale).
👉🏾Monuments celebrating confederates are removed in cities in Virginia, Alabama, and other states.
👉🏾Street in front of the White House is renamed “Black Lives Matter Plaza.”
Military forces begin to withdraw from D.C.
Then, there’s all the other stuff that’s hard to measure:
💓The really difficult public and private conversations that are happening about race and privilege.
💓The realizations some white people are coming to about racism and the role of policing in this country.
💓The self-reflection.
💓The internal battles exploding within organizations over issues that have been simmering or ignored for a long time. Some organizations will end as a result, others will be forever changed or replaced with something stronger and fairer.
Globally:
🌎 Protests against racial inequality sparked by the police killing of George Floyd are taking place all over the world.
🌎 Rallies and memorials have been held in cities across Europe, as well as in Mexico, Canada, Brazil, Australia, and New Zealand.
🌎 As the US contends with its second week of protests, issues of racism, police brutality, and oppression have been brought to light across the globe.
🌎 People all over the world understand that their own fights for human rights, for equality and fairness, will become so much more difficult to win if we are going to lose America as the place where ‘I have a dream’ is a real and universal political program,” Wolfgang Ischinger, a former German ambassador to the US, told the New Yorker.
🌎 In France, protesters marched holding signs that said “I can’t breathe” to signify both the words of Floyd, and the last words of Adama Traoré, a 24-year-old black man who was subdued by police officers and gasped the sentence before he died outside Paris in 2016.
🌎 Cities across Europe have come together after the death of George Floyd:
✊🏽 In Amsterdam, an estimated 10,000 people filled the Dam square on Monday, holding signs and shouting popular chants like “Black lives matter,” and “No justice, no peace.”
✊🏽 In Germany, people gathered in multiple locations throughout Berlin to demand justice for Floyd and fight against police brutality.
✊🏾 A mural dedicated to Floyd was also spray-painted on a stretch of wall in Berlin that once divided the German capital during the Cold War.
✊🏿 In Ireland, protesters held a peaceful demonstration outside of Belfast City Hall, and others gathered outside of the US embassy in Dublin.
✊🏿In Italy, protesters gathered and marched with signs that said “Stop killing black people,” “Say his name,” and “We will not be silent.”
✊🏾 In Spain, people gathered to march and hold up signs throughout Barcelona and Madrid.
✊🏾 In Athens, Greece, protesters took to the streets to collectively hold up a sign that read “I can’t breathe.”
✊🏾 In Brussels, protesters were seen sitting in a peaceful demonstration in front of an opera house in the center of the city.
✊🏾In Denmark, protesters were heard chanting “No justice, no peace!” throughout the streets of Copenhagen, while others gathered outside the US embassy.
✊🏾 In Canada, protesters were also grieving for Regis Korchinski-Paquet, a 29-year-old black woman who died on Wednesday after falling from her balcony during a police investigation at her building.
✊🏾 And in New Zealand, roughly 2,000 people marched to the US embassy in Auckland, chanting and carrying signs demanding justice.
💐 Memorials have been built for Floyd around the world, too. In Mexico City, portraits of him were hung outside the US embassy with roses, candles, and signs.
💐 In Poland, candles and flowers were laid out next to photos of Floyd outside the US consulate.
💐 And in Syria, two artists created a mural depicting Floyd in the northwestern town of Binnish, “on a wall destroyed by military planes.”
Before the assassination of George Floyd some of you were able to say whatever the hell you wanted and the world didn’t say anything to you…
THERE HAS BEEN A SHIFT, AN AWAKENING…MANY OF YOU ARE BEING EXPOSED FOR WHO YOU REALLY ARE. #readthatagain
Don’t wake up tomorrow on the wrong side of this issue. Its not to late to SAY,
“Maybe I need to look at this from a different perspective.”
“Maybe I don’t know what its like to be black in America…”
“Maybe, just maybe, I have been taught wrong.”
There is still so much work to be done. It’s been a really dark, raw week. This could still end badly. But all we can do is keep doing the work.
Keep protesting.
WE ARE NOT TRYING TO START A RACE WAR; WE ARE PROTESTING TO END IT,
PEACEFULLY.
How beautiful is that?
ALL LIVES CANNOT MATTER UNTIL YOU INCLUDE BLACK LIVES.
YOU CANNOT SAY ‘ALL LIVES MATTER’ WHEN YOU DO NOTHING TO STOP SYSTEMIC RACISM & POLICE BRUTALITY.
YOU CANNOT SAY ‘ALL LIVES MATTER’ WHEN BLACK PEOPLE ARE DYING AND ALL YOU COMPLAIN ABOUT IS THE LOOTING.
YOU CANNOT SAY ‘ALL LIVES MATTER’ WHEN YOU ALLOW CHILDREN TO BE CAGED, VETERANS TO GO HOMELESS, AND POOR FAMILIES TO GO HUNGRY & LOSE THEIR HEALTH INSURANCE.
DO ALL LIVES MATTER? YES. BUT RIGHT NOW, ONLY BLACK LIVES ARE BEING TARGETED, JAILED, AND KILLED EN MASSE- SO THAT’S WHO WE’RE FOCUSING ON.
🖤🖤🖤BLACK LIVES MATTER🖤🖤🖤
IF YOU CAN’T SEE THIS, YOU ARE THE PROBLEM.
*I do not know the original author*
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Thank EVERYONE who is choosing to be part of the solution!!
#georgefloyd #blacklivesmatter #whatsnextfordex
Grieve 6/8
Grieving eh? Probably the one word I refuse to write about but today I’ll. I feel like we all should grieve when we can. It does not make you weak to grieve, either you do it around people or alone in your room. Just remember it’s okay to grieve and do it as long as you want to.
Like my girlfriend grieving for her Uncle that past few years ago. She doesn’t mention him all the time but I can tell she misses him. His nickname was man man. I could tell he was a good human soul just by the things she says about him.
Or a few months ago my favorite Uncle passes away from cancer. Cancer sucks by the way and I pray it goes away forever. You don’t really care for that stuff until it hit your family members, not knowing if they will live through or meet their end.
My Uncle Vincent sadly lost his battle to cancer. He fought long and hard. I never visit him in the hospital but we did video chat and he visits whenever he could because he stays in GA. I regret not visiting him in the hospital, yeah he was a good 7 hours away but to me, there is no excuse. Always visit your loved ones when they in the hospital.
Watching my family grieve was the hardest thing, I knew they were happy that he didn’t have to suffer anymore but sad that he had to go. I’m honestly angry that he had to go, definitely from cancer but I grieve and understood.
Never be scared to grieve and check on your loved ones.
