Life can be such a pain sometimes you know? I know I should be blessed to live every day but what’s the point if you can’t have what you want? Sitting down thinking about certain people made me realized you can’t have everything you want no matter how hard you try even if you be nice to them. True they’re just friends but you wanted more. You kinda realized you were lonely. Lonely enough to fall for anybody that cross your eyes. Being lonely is a hard battle if you ask me… you try to fight it off trying to be around with different people or staying home watching random t.v shows and etc… it can really be a pain, it’s like you fighting demons because you wanna push everyone away from you and be lock up in your room all day unless you cooking or using the bathroom or leaving for work. You sit there and wonder when it’s going to end, who going to make it stop or will this pointless battle last forever… I have been out of place lately, my mind is gone 24/7 but I realize I just have to act my normal self, and that stay chilling at all times. Hanging with people who has good vibes, try to get my life back on track no matter who I meet, try to force myself to go out more and make new friends who can lift you up, all these things come to your mind so so easy, but it’s up to you if you wanna make that change. True certain people can make an impact on your life and they leave you for no reason( and no I not talking about my ex) got nothing but love for her…. but in the mean time, I’ll see how this battle go. Thank you for reading if you did.
Thankful 11/26
Happy Thanksgiving to all the bloggers out there. I hope you and your family have an amazing day and be safe out there.
So far my day is going well. Work was steady, grandma cooking, don’t have to go in until 11:30, bought my daughter a telescope today so she can look at the stars and I’m just chilling playing the game and I’m thankful for all that.
Again Happy Thanksgiving and enjoy your day.
Farctate 11/20
Nay sleeps on this day, sufficiently I got some but hardly because I’d a lot of driving to do and I wasn’t ready for that. We also had a 2-month-old so you know how that is and yes this is Thanksgiving 5 years ago.
Wasn’t looking for that drive to Avon Park FL, but I know I’d take it. The mother of my daughter wanted to spend time with her family and she did. Took lots of pictures and ate lots of food. Got to meet new members of her family and got to meet old ones. We left in the evening and I was stuff.
Our second drive was back home to Saint Petersburg FL, which was a good two hours away. My baby mama knew I was tired and sleepy so she volunteered to drive halfway while I sleep and watch the baby. I was able to get little sleep but she started crying again so it was time for daddy duties.
We made it there safely. We went to my grandparent’s house and spent some time there. Took some more pictures and ate some more food. Again I’m stuff. After, I’d like to take her back to her dad’s place because she was staying overnight. That was fun as well, ate some more food lol.
I didn’t mention I’d to be back at work around 11 pm. I didn’t leave Saint Petersburg until 9 pm. Stuff, drain, sleepy, and with an extra plate for tomorrow. I drove back home and made it to work at 10:55 pm.
That day was fun and tiresome but I ate lots of delicious food. I dream this year be the same and I wish you a good morning!
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Healing 11/19
Healing… A word we can use in many different ways but today I’ll use it in gaming terms.
Whenever I do games and play an RPG or MMORPG but mostly MMORPG games, even on the Xbox I still play them.
I like to play the tank or healing classes because I don’t like dying too easily. I’m one of the players who don’t mind being on the front lines but I still like to keep my team alive.
Playing a healing class can be good and bad. Good parts, you are always needed in groups. Easy to farm for gear. People tend to look out for you randomly, you can’t do much damage but unlike other players, you don’t have to buy health potions and many more.
The bad part of being healing?? Other players expecting you to keep them alive 24/7. Players who expect you to keep them alive but running away from the heals. Bad players blaming healers because they can’t stay alive throughout the dungeon and many more.
Even in a video game you’ve to learn how to heal on your own. Yes, we have people who could heal your spirits but if you can’t heal then you better learn how.
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Adject 11/18
Being miserable in your own life can be tiresome. It just seems like no matter how many chances you get. You get knocked down every single time but you kinda deserve it because you never learn your lesson.
You get blessed more than others but you still do the wrong thing over and over that it gets to the point you make it harder for someone who did care for you to the lookout. You treat the people the best who cause you so much pain, the reason you have nothing and the reason why no one wanna help, the reason why your loved ones disclaim you, and the reason why you going through hard times. By now you’d have gotten the pictures by now.
It’s even worse when your seeds or family don’t wanna be around you. How much miserably can you take before you go to that dark hole if that ever happens?
Gotta do what’s best for you. You have the potential to achieve anything but you lack forces because of the love you’ve for someone. Look past them and you’ll be in a better place in life. I know it!
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Morning post 11/18
Sometimes you get in these thoughts and you start to wonder about life. The words I have, I will, I believe, I can would most likely come to your mind and you know what? Not a bad thing. You just wanna do better for yourself and the ones around you.
Remember you’re the one who in control of your life, never be scared to challenge your ability because that can always become limitless.
You have the power to achieve anything you want in life and never be worry to transition to a new life because it can be hard or just be smooth.
You can conquer the world and abandoned them bad habits you trying to get rid of and find the good ones that suit your life.
I hope your morning is going well and I hope you have a good day.
Realizations 11/17
Sometimes you’ve to sit back and realized some things about your life. What can you do you make it better? Who to turn to? What goals you wanna complete, etc.
You gotta stop giving out so much love or even wait for it. Love yourself and love the ones that you care deeply for.
Respect yourself so others can. No matter how far you go in life, always show respect, and stay humble.
Eat freely but know when to watch it. I’m only 28 but can see the difference in certain things the older I get… This can’t be life lol.
I learn in massage school you should meditate and I agree. 10 minutes per day do the trick and go longer if you can.
And my last advice… I learned over the few months I found myself trying to please other people because I didn’t want to lose them but hey, sometimes you’ve to let do be and focus on your life. It’s already short so you should always do you.
Cat nap dreams 11/16
You dream of people telling you to leave. You can’t be here anymore and all you’re asking is why? Funny, they really telling you in your own dream you can’t stay here.
You remember feeling low about yourself, not knowing what to do, thinking of better ways to make you happy or at least feel something.
Before you awaked from your slumber. You remember being confuse about the whole situation because this is your dream.
But then you awaken from your slumber and realized it was just a dream but just because it was a dream doesn’t mean they don’t want you really there in real life.
Have a small circle, keep the ones you love close and never stop showing that love. Be Eazy.
Manifestation 11/11
Long day I thought to myself before I got home because I knew it’ll be a long day. Luckily for me, my coworker gave me a ride home from work. I wouldn’t have care to take the bus home but we’re in the middle of a hurricane so yeah I was thankful.
Before I went to my grandparent’s house to help with my little nephew’s online schoolwork and before the mother of my daughter drops her off I’d to manifest my time together and this what I came up with.
Think about the permanent outcome, just never know what will happen. Be your own person and always walk with positive thoughts and don’t let anyone kill your vibe. Never allow temporary position, you can always move up in life if you’ve faith and my last one, never be scared to try different locations. The people I’ve been dealing with lately show me some interesting things that I do enjoy.
I’m housebound in this house because of the hurricane. I even got an alert that we have a tornado warning too but hey I still have to work tonight lol. Hope your day is much dryer than mines and be safe.
Night Patrol Part 2 11/6
Another chill night down the drain. I’m more rested but still, feel tired for some reason.
During my foot patrol, I notice this small little creature going to the grass. I know in the pictures it doesn’t seem that way but when I got closer it quickly turns the other cheek like it senses I was there standing over it.
I was able to get close, unlike the creature from a few nights ago, this one was moving pretty quickly. I don’t know how big these things get with all these tiny legs but I do know they will make anyone jump lol.
Before I took this picture it ran into some dirt on the way. I was gonna walk past it but Nah I gonna post you on my blog later.
The second picture is when he turns around, so I’d like to drop down quickly to get a better shot. I wanted to get an eyeshot but I felt like I’d have to work hard for that.
The third picture is behind it. I don’t know where it was going but I know it wanted to get away from me. I didn’t see any big birds or anything that’ll find it delicious so I hope it got to the grass safely.
Night Patrol 11/5
Walking around the perimeter on foot because it’s kinda cool whenever I ride the jitney. Windy night as I hear the leaves and sticks falling from the ground making little noise but the air feels nice out so I can’t complain
Patrolling the villas on foot I look down and see this. I walk past it at first but quickly realized that I seen these things a hundred times but never seen one this small before. I was also able to get an up-close picture because they move so slow.
I honestly hope it does well out there on the property. I did help it get to the grass before leaving it so hopefully, it grows stronger but here are the pictures that I took.
The first one is the up-close one, I was next to it when I took the picture. Most people would have been scary but nope!
And the 2nd one I took standing up. I did have to zoom in a bit because it was too small to spot but hopefully you get the picture.
