Heart week from a friend day-1

One of my childhood friend Jasmine Gilgosch who has CHD is doing this heart week post on Facebook. I know allot of people not award of this and she gave me permission to post each one on my blog. I been following her story for a while and I believe you should too. Below is day one and I hope we all learn something because I’ll be posting all of them today.


Day #1- Diagnosis; Hypoplastic Right Heart Syndrome with pulmonary artery atresia. When I was born the right side of my heart was pretty much non existent with this specific kind when I was born the pulmonary valve between the right ventricle and pulmonary artery is not formed. This was very scary back in 1993. It’s still sad when someone is diagnosed with CHD but back then there was no way to really detect it and doctors didn’t know to look for it so I was literally born and apparently wasn’t breathing like any normal baby should have been. It was a rough start from the beginning but I’ve clearly and thankfully made it through.

A new diagnosis that isn’t 100% heart related but can be and is still concerning recently came to me this summer. I had blood clots sitting in my left lung for years apparently and though my hospital stay helped to break them down because they had been sitting for so long I’m now missing the lower lobe of my left lung and unfortunately that’s permanent damage.

My body was already slowing down due to the natural effects of my CHD but losing half a lung definitely hasn’t helped. I still push through and make the most of this life I was blessed to live every single day.



I remember growing up I always wanted to go to a carnival but never did until I got older.

I was barely 19 years old when I went to my first carnival and it was fun. I went with my best homeboy and his girlfriend. We also had another friend with us. 

Even for my first time, I had fun, I tried different many foods and deserts. I also played different games and won some of them. I believe I won a big teddy bear for my homie girlfriend since he couldn’t win anything lol.

Never be scared to try different things in life, you never know you might love it and enjoy your time. For example, I, my girlfriend and her sister are going to Halloween Horror night in Orlando Fl, next month. It’s funny that I and my friends always plan to go but never do, so hopefully, I’ll go this year and I honestly can’t wait.

I hope your day was good, and I wish you a good night.


My girl

I felt like writing about her this morning and that’s exactly what I’m going to do. So far I learn a lot from her. So strong and independent that she doesn’t need anyone help because no matter what, she always gets things done.

Whenever she feels stressful, I always do my best to calm her down and tell her to not to worry about things because I’ll be right by her side to take care of them.

She also a wonderful mother to her son and I love that about her. No matter what she is always there for him and will do anything to make sure he is straight.

I also enjoy my time with her whenever we spend time together, but lately, my work schedule gets in the way sometimes but even with that she is still there for me. If I call for food, she there. If I call for a ride to work or home she there and if I ever need anyone to vent too she is there. No matter what she is always there for me even when I aggravated her so time lol but ill make sure I will be there for her.

I honestly can’t wait to talk to her whenever she wakes up, hearing her beautiful voice always makes my day. Her random laughs, the wisdom she speaks and I also love that she trusts me enough to vent to whenever she has problems.

The morning is nice and my little sister is coming over which is cool. I hope you all are having a good Sunday and I wish you a good day

Cece Letter#1

I realize your last words that you were probably trying to tell me you were going to sleep which is cool so sorry for calling twice. Ya know, that phone call made my day/night. This whole day I was eager to call or even text you but I knew you were busy and I didn’t want to disturb you.

But that the thing though. I could have text or call anybody else but I only wanted to talk to you and you only. Yeah, my day was boring because of the 16h shift but it was all worth it in the end because I got to talk to you.

I really did enjoy our phone conversations tonight. Like I said before, your voice is so soothing and relaxing that I don’t mind listening to you talk but I still found it cool you enjoy listening to me talk, you made me smile.

Even though your day was busy I still hope you had a good one, the shoes you pick out was nice and I’m sure you’ll pick a perfect outfit and I can’t wait to see you in it.

I wish you sweet dreams and good night sleep and I hope you enjoy the letter.

Strong Friend

I’ve got this friend who been going through allot for the past couple of months. She actually lives right across the street from me which is funny because we never thought we will ever live close by.

I watch this friend go through pain every single day of the week and there nothing I can do but listen to her problems whenever she feels like opening up. But don’t you hate that? when you have a friend who goes through allot and there nothing you can do. You just wish all their pain, problems, bad health all go away. I feel this way every single day when I see her post a status reaching out for help.

Recently this friend finds out she has Lumpus which suck for her and now she slowly going blind one of her eyes. Her vision also ain’t that great either. I won’t say everything about her but let just say her life is going downhill. 

But I notice one thing about her. She never gives up on life. She still tries to find hope the best way she can. One thing I’ll say that no one can’t say she didn’t try to support herself. I see her do it every day. Hell, even now she still trying to plan a birthday party for her 4-year-old. Even though things are crashing down around her she still has time to think of her daughter party. Not many people can do that.

You going to watch someone you love go through a lot of pain. but that doesn’t mean you can’t be there for them. You might not can’t help much but a listening ear is always a blessing to them because at least someone took the time out to listen to their problems.

Never think you’re alone, there always that one people who wanna help and to take your pain away. Just be great in life and be eazy.

My All-Time Favorite

My All-Time favorite is these five for now. I’ll explain why I love each picture below.

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This photo was taken on her 2nd birthday. She took ten pictures that day and this was my favorite one. I like how she poses for the picture because I can tell she is having fun and she really was that day. It’s hard to get kids to smile but when you like to smile yourself it runs in the blood.

dua 3

You can tell by my eyes I was super tired that day. I just got off from work doing an overnight shift. Had to drive all the way home back from Orlando which was 2 hours drive to make it to my little sister high school graduation. I promised her years ago I wouldn’t miss it and I didn’t. Always keep your promise, definitely when it’s your little sister.


This day, 9/14/15 the day my daughter was born. Before the nurse lady told me and my friends to put the cameras away. My Ex-girlfriend best-friend snaps this picture. Before she snaps it she put the words on the yellow thingy. I honestly forgot what it was called lol but this picture will be forever my favorite.

dua 2

A friend of mines took this picture of me when I was looking out into the water. Just thinking about life, the water was nice, the weather was nice and it was peaceful because it was empty that day too. I was always told standing by the water is good, you should try it.


I remember this night. It was the first time I got invited to a bonfire. It was nice sitting down with friends and talking about life. We also ate marshmallow and smores. We later played games that night. Overall it was a good night and I’ll always remember it. And I don’t know why the fire looks like that lol… I can’t remember if they did something to it or just how the picture took it.

These are my top five favorite pictures and I’ll never forget them. I hope everyone is having a good day and I wish you a good first Friday.

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A Friend

I know we all have that one friend that we hold close to our hearts and we will do anything for them if in our power But let me tell you little about my special friend.

You see, I have this friend that I knew since 2008. She randomly sends me a request on myspace one day and I accept it. Even though we didn’t know each other I knew we would become good friends and maybe more in the future.

She was always that friend I can always talk to if anything is on my mind. Anytime I have a problem she was there and she always gives out some good advice even though it’s tough love.

Anytime I’m around her it’s always a good vibe, her voice brings calmness and her smile will brighten your day no matter how you feel.

I’ll always love this friend, she brings so much joy to people lives including mines and I love that we talk every single day and it’s always a special moment because she brings peace to my mind. 

If you have a friend like mines always hold them close and be there for them just like they’re there for you and I wish you a good day.



Every year I enjoy saying happy Memorial Day to people who serve our country. I’ve uncle and cousins that did 20 years plus to make sure we stayed safe. I even have friends that serve and I pray that they always make it home safe.

Happy Memorial Day to people that serve. I have the utmost respect for every single one of you and I hope you enjoy your day.

I also wanna thank the soldiers who protected us until the end. The sacrifice you made cannot be replaced. 

I can’t wait to see the old residents that serve in WW2 today, They always tell me old stories on how the war really was and I’ll say it’s an honor to listen and to learn about it. So many people pass but they died protecting us and you should feel honor.

Today should be a good day, it was supposed to rain but it may hold off until later. Like always I wish you a good day.


Blast From The Past #2

I made this post back in 2011 after a break-up. This was also one of the first writing I’d share with my friends. Suprisely they all like it and understand it well. I hope you do too and I wish you a good night. Oh yeah, the post was named Things You Shouldn’t Hear!

To me, I don’t think you should hear things you don’t want to hear about that person you really like or even good friends with. Some people just jealous and like to start rumors or the stuff they say can be true if you don’t know that person very well or you just saw it with your own eyes and you actually hang with this person to find out what they can do. sometimes you sit back and wonder, how many people did he/she done this to before you. And if they easy which most people you will meet today are. I wouldn’t do nothing to them, even though you do..but you just can’t, you half to find more about them before you can even go that far with them, even if you like them allot. Then you realize you got love for that person and you try to be there for them if you can. Ya’ll both the same and can understand each other and hearing stuff about them just have you thinking?? should you keep trying? or go find somebody else to like. Or keep trying, but if they choose somebody else over you, just move on no use of trying.

Then again if they are known for being a player and playing with people hearts and trying to talk to everybody they see, which you will see in this small city we live in. I pretty sure you have noticed it with your own eyes, but you don’t ask questions, you just sit back and chill until something come up. But when a person says oh yeah we are messing around, she does that and this, even your own family try to tell you.  You’ll be curious, you think to yourself. How many people did they mess with before they even mate you, and what type of stuff they have done to them, but then again it’s always a saying, don’t trust nobody. Whoever they trust, did a fail job, if they talking behind their back and telling you these things but you witness it for your self. What more can you say, they just don’t have true friends if you ask me and sometimes you wonder why they call that certain person names and etc but then again they also a lair and you half to watch out for that. But true friends are very hard to come by, but when you recognize someone as being a true friend then you should do your best to hold on to them. Just because someone has been in your life for a long amount of time does not necessarily mean that they are a true friend, which she/he didn’t even learn yet.


This word matches my week in a way. At my job I usually get plates from the dietary workers.

You see, they are not allowed to fix plates for the employees which suck because the food they don’t use. They throw away which is so dumb to me. My job can feed a lot of people if they didn’t do that and they don’t even feel guilty about it.

My friend Katie is a captain and she is very nice. Monday I ask her for a plate but it was busy as hell that day so I told her to fix the plate and leave it on the counter so I can come back and pick it up later. 

Steve someone who is higher than her in the kitchen saw the plate and probably threw it away because later that night I went to look for it and couldn’t find it. I didn’t know Katie message me on snapchat telling me what happens. So I knew why it wasn’t there.

I felt guilty until the next day when I find out she didn’t get in trouble. Usually, the employees get fired when they get caught sharing food with other people. I told her that next time I’ll just wait and take the plate just to make sure this doesn’t happen again. 

There some things in life that are out of our reach and you may feel guilty about it. Just know it won’t last forever. Today is sunny, might go for a good walk… maybe because it’s hot lol but I do wish you a good day!