It been awhile eh?

First off, I wanna say I hope everyone is having a good year so far… Mines is going okay so far…well I wouldn’t say that but for now everything is good. I caught the Flu in the beginning of the year and that shit was depressing… Like I never gotten the flu and I wouldn’t want to have it again. Had it for five days, then I had a little cough for like 2 week after the flu was over and that shit was annoying. hopefully that’s the only time I get sick. Work is going well also. My crush probably  notice me. We talk on the phone last night for like an hour and couple of minutes until her dog piss on the floor, but it was nice tho. Also, my job is giving me and my co-workers a raise which is good and it’s about time lol. Oh yeah, I bought this game call The Hunter: call of the wild… it’s a fun game and was worth the $40 bucks I spent… I feel like I grew more patient in life because of this game and it’s so relaxing. It’s just one of those chills game where you don’t have to try hard at anything. Just go around and hunt animals. I also learn different stuff from the game as well. My daughter is getting bigger, she broke her new car seat I bought couple of months ago and she can now hold a conversation on the phone/video with me. Still can’t believe she growing fast and she only two. I bought her more books to read because even now she like books with is cool with me. my friends and family is also well… Today is my good homeboy birthday today and he turn 25. Can’t believe most of us going to be 30 soon and it felt like yesterday we was chilling at the park after high school. Oh, my little brother finally got a job and he having a baby girl next month( hopefully he get out my place soon lol). But life is going well for now, I feel like something going to come up. Either way I hope you enjoy this read and yes I need to type more… been slacking.

Random dream I had.

One day I travel back to St.Petersburg Fl just to check up on friends and family, I stayed for about 3 days at least, so I can see everybody I love, or even hang with. But one night as I drive down the pinlleas county road just listening to music and enjoying my last night here for a while. I see a pretty young lady that I knew back in middle school, but we still kept in touch to this day. I found it odd that she was walking this late at night, So I stop and ask her what’s going on, Why you out here so late? She replies: I just walking back home, I miss the city bus. I ask her how far is home? and why didn’t you ask for a ride from your friends or family? She replies they all busy, which I understand. So I offer her a ride and she got in, she ask me where was I going? I told her, I’m going to st.pete beach, just to feel the nice sand on my feet before I head back to Orlando. She said that was cool and sound lovely on a night like this. But she also asks me how’s you and your girlfriend?( I don’t have a girlfriend in real life). All that advice I gave you, I hope you use it. I told her I did, and we’re well, just taking it slow that’s all. She ask why she not with you? I said she wanted to spend time with her friends and etc. Well at least you understand her? don’t you? I do? why you ask? Just asking? even though we don’t see each other like that, but I do understand another Virgo. Me crack a smile, maybe so, but we all can be different don’t you think? True, but let me ask you a question? since your girlfriend is out with her friends and you going to the beach alone. How about I join you? I’m sure you don’t wanna spend your last night here alone all by yourself on the beach at midnight.  Maybe true, but you don’t have beach clothes to wear, Am I right? No, I got some, I went to the pool today, they about dry, But the bathroom going to be close, how you going to change? She reply I’ll wait until you get out the car and change. May I do that or that a problem? Me no no, gone head. I won’t look. As I drive the rest of the way to the beach and we just talk and talk about life and other people and relationship problems. As we approach the beach while she changing. We start walking on the sand looking at stars and the bright moonlight that lite up the whole sky, we walk for hours just talking. As it comes to an end, she said, you are such a good guy, I’m not even dating you. You so nice to me? I wonder why? My reply was I’m just nice and I try to help as many people the best way I can even if I don’t have nothing to offer. She reply, you offer your soul and respect to people which make you a good guy. Maybe one day you’ll find the right girl for you, just try harder in life is the best advice I can give you at the moment. I reply that go the same for you. I notice your Facebook status and etc. everything going to be okay in your life. Just believe. Is that why you wear that believe bracelet all the time? Yes. but it can mean many more, as I crack a smile. But I’ll take you home now. before she went in the house, she gave me a kiss on the cheek, and said thank for the wonderful night. I hope your girlfriend see what she really have and I hope she don’t lose you. Good night Johnathan talk to ya soon. As I wake up with the sun in my eyes because my little brother opens the window but he made up for it because I saw a bag of weed next to my face so hey I’m not going to compline.

Early morning question

You see the title, an early morning question. One of my home girls text me this morning and ask how do I deal with a gamer? I ask her what do you mean? She text back an hour later and said I’ve been talking to this guy for 2 months and he a hardcore gamer kinda like you but I know you do others things… Which is true. So I gave her my opinion. All the girls I dated was cool with me playing games. She ask why? I said simple I was always there and home. She text back and said what do you mean by that?

I was home all the time, if I wasn’t home gaming my life away I was at the gym, the park/beach, taking nice walks in the middle of the night and hanging with the homies playing video games like T7 or Naruto, killing instant and work. Plus they was happy that I was home most of the time unlike other guys who go clubbing or always on the streets with their homies and etc. 

Then she ask me what about the t.v time? I told her they usually sit there and watch me play, definitely if its a story mode game( they always saw it like a mini movie or show) and if I’m too tired to play. They will learn how to use my system and turn on Netflix or buy a movie from the Xbox store( which I didn’t mind) and I will sit there and watch it with them until we both tap out. I told her talking to a gamer can be fun but not all of them is good ya know? And that is up to you if you wanna keep trying or not. We all different in our own little way. Date us or not just know we going to catch up on allot of t.v shows lol. I might even write how do I feel being a gamer one day by the way have a great day 😊.

Today 11/28

Like the title, today… Today is a drag to me, woke up a lil to early, mouth taste funny, muscles hurt, little back pain and more. Wash my face, spoken to my younger brother ( who crashing with me). Afternoon came, got high and watch some dragon Ball Z and a Netflix show call Glitch which is amazing. Now I’m at work chilling. I finish season 2 of Glitch. Spoken to one of my friends who needs a new phone. I did all my security work early so I can relax and now I’m waiting to go on patroll so I can get some orange juice because I’m thirsty like a cow. I’m okay just encase you asking but I’m thinking about allot of things lately. I been wanting more money, spending more time with my daughter, try to stay in good contact with my friends and probably just maybe looking for a woman to chat/spend with with( probably because I been lonely lately. That’s okay thought, sometimes you need to spend time to yourself because we all need some inner peace no matter who you is. You should always stay positive no matter what because someone maybe feeling worst then you…. I felt back for an old child hood friend why? She has sex for money and etc. I told her you better stop doing that before you catch something. She reply and said I know I just hope I don’t catch anything but when you need money and a place to live ( definitely when it’s cold) and that shit is so sad man and she don’t have family or close friends. She also lives a bad life but hey that none of my business. So I’m thankful I don’t live like her because I can’t image doing stuff like that. I should really write more but thank you for reading and I hope you have a great day.

Lost Friendship

Tell me, if I tell you a story about a lost friendship, would you read it? or will you? Only you can answer this question. I feel like I lost a lot of friends over the years and we never really speak unless we need each other help or just to comment a status but when you go out your way and hang with a person all day long, pay their rent, bought food for their place so they won’t go hungry and show them memoirs they had as a kid growing up. I feel like this person owe me allot but she really doesn’t, why? because I wanted to do those things, I wanted to make her smile and I wanted to her to be happy for a change. She struggle allot in life and do things that she should do to survive in this lonely world, I not going to tag any names or even mention her, but I do wish her the best, even if she hates me or dislike me because some person who jealous of me, I can not control that. Only thing I can do is pray to god and hope we speak again if we allow it. I have faith in my lord and always will. Looking back on friendship make me wonder how life will be if I had the same old friends in high school? eh? confusing, some of them dead, some of the parents and some just nowhere to be found ya know? but I wish and pray that everyone has a blessed day even my family I pray for and I hardly speak to them but overall, that’s how life is, you help who you can and hope they do the same for you one day. I really do things in my life get better, I been mopping around for the past 2 days and I don’t know why but that’ll change starting tomorrow. Not one of my best notes like I use to do in the past but I hope you enjoy reading it as much as I enjoy typing it, even if it didn’t make sense to you. I really hope this one person read it because of she the one that made me think of these things. Good night and have a blessed one, by King Johnathan F. Pugh.

To my little one

How you doing little one? I’m sitting here thinking about life and see how the year goes so fast that our minds can’t keep up. You can’t read this letter that I’m about to type but I’ll read it to you when the time is right or just when you’re older.
I remember that sunny day at work when your mother told me the big news. Your father uses to work at the Marquee. It’s a college apartment but before that, I’d beg your mother to get a checkup because I believe she was pregnant. Let me remind you your Dad never had a baby before but it just felt that way. I’m also a boobs guy and your dad couldn’t touch your mother breast because she always uses to jump, but deep down inside I couldn’t understand why. I forgot what day your mom told me she was pregnant but I know we were in a car. Our first car together but sadly it was total. When your mom told me the news I was kinda scared. Like I knew my life is going to change forever because I was having a baby. Kids equal no fun and that means I’d to take life seriously you know? I was happy at the same time as well, Like me, King Johnathan becoming a dad. I didn’t think I was able to have kids because I dated your mom for 3 to almost 4 years and she never got pregnant until now. I guess God said it was our turn to be parents.
I remember the day you were boring, if anyone asks me to tell the story I could relive it like it was yesterday. I was so nervous and I was nervous for your mom. I was hoping she will be okay the whole time while I was downstairs waiting for your Godmother Ashley to tell me the news or what’s going on. I had to sleep in the car overnight because they wouldn’t let me sleep downstairs( well I think so) but your Godmother Ashley keep me updated by calling and texting my phone. Then bam the news hit. Your mom was in Labor. I was really scared then because I was there witnessing my first birth ever. I didn’t like how was your mother was looking. I could tell she was in a lot of pain but hanging in there at the same time. There is no telling how much drugs she was on at the time but I’d faith in your mother because I knew she was strong( always remember that). Sadly you wouldn’t come out the regular way. I believe your mom half slept at the time when the doctor pulled me to the side and said that your mom needed a C-section. They told me it was my decision. I had to think about it was 5 minutes because I really did believe your mom could have pushed you out but I see how much pain she was and I told them we will choose the C-section.
They had your dad warp all in yellow like I was going to help someone with bad bleeding which was hard to walk in. I gave Godmother Ashley our stuff and we went to the back room. I’d to sit beside your mom and hold her hand. I was so scared for her that I didn’t know what to do besides pray and hope she does okay. Your mom didn’t know what was going on either. 10 minutes in, you were boring. The nurse asks me to get up and take pictures when you first came out which was cool. You didn’t know you were born so I’d to tell her but I’m sure she was happy, just in too much pain to show it. When the nurse got done cleaning you up, she put you right on your mom’s chest and Y’all both stare right into each other eyes. I’ll never forget that because told me you knew who your mom was.
I remember when we had to go get your first ever shot in the baby room where all the new boring babies were located at. Only your father was allowed to see you and allow in the room. I could and return anytime I please. They sent your mom to another room to recover. Also, your grandma just arrives too. You was the only baby who didn’t cry in the room, there was baby’s way bigger then you in there. I only told all the nurse you was a young warrior and your grandmother agree. I remember holding you for the first time ever, it felt weird at first because I still couldn’t believe I was a dad. I cried when your mom and grandma left the room, I was always scared to show my tears in front of other people but not in front of you I wasn’t. Even you started to cry( laughing out loud). But you was a sweet little baby. I remember allot of stuff but can’t type them here, I’ll be reading to you forever. But the main reason why I thought of all this because your birthday is coming up and I can’t wait. You’ll be one year old real soon. Your dad is also moving back home soon so we will spend allot of time together. I wish me and your mom was on better term but I hope in do time our relationship as friends get better. I love you allot and one day I’ll read this to you. Be a strong little person and always be good to your mother Ramiyah Pugh

Today 10/5/17

Today was a good day if you ask me, I had to come into work at 0730 with 4 hours or sleep maybe 4.5? I not sure. All I know I woke up at 0500 on the dot and stayed up because I couldn’t fall back to sleep. Work was good for the first couple of hours. I started getting sleepy around 12 I believe and boi it sucks. I felt like I was going to pass out at the gate and that would have been bad. I thought of Rachel Ohmer today and wanted to speak to her so bad but something told me not to contact her but at the same time do. Like you ever get the dying feeling too? Yeah, that was me all freaky day. Like I really did fell for this girl yo. After work, I call my good old friend Amber to take me home. I notice on her snap she was home chilling and wasn’t doing nothing so I ask just to see what she would say and she said yes. We went to the corner store and she bought me a drink. I didn’t want her to buy me anything, to be honest, but I feel like it would have boosted her spirit which it probably did. She gave me a black as well. I probably didn’t need to smoke it but I wanted to feel relax and I had no more weed lol. I got home and played some 2k18 with some friends but we lost the game and I was too tired to continue so I took like a 2 or 3-hour nap which was needed. I gave in and call Rachel Ohmer. Apparently, she wasn’t talking to no one from home while she was on her trip… I mean I’m sure she talked to Tim Gunn but her you never know. I believe her and it felt nice hearing her voice, I feel like she wanted to talk but I didn’t push it. She told me what she was doing and I said I’m glad you doing well and that I was checking up on her. She seems curious about how I was doing. Even though I wanted to say the words I was dying to speak to you but I didn’t. She told me she will talk to me Monday which is the day she will be back home. Overall the day was good and tiresome. I myself is going to bed soon since I’ve to be up in the morning for another early shift. If you actually read all this, thank you I may not have the best grammar or the best blog but I’m happy enough to write my day down.

Thinker…

What can I do? My mind is in deep thought and I don’t know what to do… I can sit here and wish that she was still single because I wanna treat her the same but that’s is not always the case. I notice I should just let time work its magic because I know deep down inside. It’s not going to last to long. I feel like my dear good old friend Tim force the issue. I can tell by her voice she wasn’t ready to date anyone. Do I still plan on being friends with her? Yes. But I’m going to give her space and probably going to talk to her when needed to be. I’ll always be there for her and be her trainer in the gym. So far I haven’t spoken to her all day. I did text her did she made it home safe because she went to dude name mark house and ate some curry chicken that was vegan. I told her to be safe and text me when you get home or back to Tim house but she never did so far. As of right now I’m at work chilling. Until then I’ll see what happens.

Lost Dreams

It hurts eh? when you like and enjoy someone but BAM! they hit you with I’m dating someone now and you just shock deep down inside but you support and said I wish you the best and I’ll always be here for you. Can you image just saying that knowing you down mean it? I had to do that tonight and it sucks so bad like I didn’t know what to say to her but it’s like she doesn’t have one because of she still so close to you? I mean she still said she going to come over still and all that but I wonder what all that means? l how should go about my day when I can’t stop thinking of her like daily even now when I’m typing this. I guess the only I can do is wait because I want her bad… I going to end this here but stay tuned to my thought

Thoughts of a thinker

I made a new friend like a month ago. Her name is Rachel Ohmer and now I like this new friend of mines. I’m always thinking of her for some odd reason like she always there traps deep within my mind. Her eyes so beautiful that you can’t help but stare at them. Whenever I do, I always get lost in them like there some type of device controlling my every move and every word.  She was able to stop me from smoking a black with an old friend of mines, one look in her eyes told me not too… later that night my friend hang out with me before he had to catch the plane back to D.C. I notice that he needed to smoke badly like he was addicted to it. He even had this half black and tried to smoke it but fail. I guess you can say she save my life there and I’m thankful for that. I also train her at the gym every Monday and Wednesday and I can tell she wants to be there. I try to convince her to add another day if she able but we see about that. She also came over one night after our gym works out. We had to take another friend home first and I was happy about that because I wanted alone time with her and that is hard to do with a certain person who name is Tim, my good friend but that is a different story. The night was perfect, we watch pretty little lairs until 6:00 in the morning. We cuddle a little toward the end and I wish I would have tried that sooner because it felt nice holding her a little. I believe she like being touch by me which is cool. we going to the gym tonight and I can’t wait… I’m going to work here because I know she can handle it.

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